Self Motivation

I haven’t been blogging for the past one month. Blogging is one of the activities I liked to do. My friends and my family kept appreciating my blogs and that was of a great encouragement for me. But lately I dint blog anything. When many of my friends asked me about it, I would just give some lame excuses like, I am busy with work or there is no Motivation.

I want to say some things about this motivation thing. In psychology, motivation is termed as the initiation, direction, intensity and persistence of behavior. Deployment of energy is often considered as an evidence of motivation. I have always used this motivation as an excuse for a lot of things that I don’t do. If I don’t want to read for an exam I just blame it on motivation. One of my friends always tells me that self-motivation is the best motivation and nothing can motivate you better than yourself. It is absolutely true and I have experienced that.

Yesterday I was at work not doing work but doing Outlook Express Chat (chatting by sending mails through official id). Then my chatters left as they work from Eastern Time and I am in Pacific Time (3 hrs back). Sometimes I wish I am in Pacific timings in the morning so that I will get up late and be in the Eastern timings in the evening so that I can go home early and sleep early. One of my stupid thoughts. Later I opened my yahoo mail and I was cleaning up my inbox (deleting unwanted mails). I use to savor the mails that are sent to me by my “Special Persons” in my life. I was reading the mails I use to exchange with my friends in my college days. That brought me up with lots of memories. Uncontrollable smile, even blushes :">

It was nice reading all that. I could see how immature I had been in college days, pulling up the stupidest fights with my friends. Though I was being stupid my friends were trying to convince me and still they are there for me. Thanks to all of them for sticking with me. And towards the end of the college days discussing about future and stuffs, trying to become mature. Exchanging autographs - the place where everyone becomes emotional and sentimental, looking back at the time they have spent together.

Just reading those made me happy and I realized that they were like time logs which can be looked back to recollect those sweet memories, cherish those moments and turn happy no matter how hard the day had been. And so are these blogs.

One of the main reasons I was refraining from updating my blog was that I always want to be perfect in whatever I do. I don’t do many things as such, but if I do something I want to do it at my best. So I had the idea that whatever I write should be really good and it must be appreciated by everyone. Now I don’t want to care about all that. I've decided to update my blog, no matter it is appreciated or not. I just want to keep a log of important things that happens in my life, and look back at it whenever I want.

So the motivation I needed here, was obviously was with me. Self motivation is possibly the best motivation. It is the ability to satisfy a desire, expectation, or goal without being influenced to do so by another person. It is the one's own free will. No one came and motivated me now. I found something on my own that motivated me to write this post. That’s what I call as Self-motivation.

Okay, now I have to find something else that would motivate me to work and not do this in the middle of my office hours :)